Milwaukee

 There is nothing better than to be able to take a walk through a street or an area in which there is life… to enter a bar and order a cold beer, to take a sip and ponder life... or chat to random strangers or make new friends. There have been times in my life that I have been in relationships in which I simply felt trapped and suffocated and an unbearable desire to get up and leave and be alone. In all of my ‘romantic’ relationships I have felt a need to entertain, to host, to ensure that my partner is not bored… and the simple things in life are usually no longer an option. Even if they are, they become a prison themselves when everything has a limit or a restriction or an expectation. For me, single life is the only life that I can live now. 

                  Do people get married because they have lost all sense of curiosity and adventure? Do they do it for a desire for sex and they can’t seem to find this through any other means? Is it merely a fear of being alone? Is it a need for financial support? Is it because their grandparents and their parents and their teachers and their friends have all told them that they need to get married and they need to have children… and so they want to match that expectation and not be the ‘odd one out’? Is it a lack of imagination and/or intelligence? Is it all of those things?

                  I’m in Milwaukee now, the sky is grey and wet, it feels like old England. Love flashes through my mind at times like a long lost and forgotten faded image. Today was a great day, nevertheless, that started with a homely breakfast in a classic old diner. After that, I walked, and used a scooter, to make my way via Marquet University and the tiny Haggerty Museum of Art to downtown Milwaukee, Lake Michigan, and the amazing Milwaukee Art Museum. From there I went to the Central distillery and had a great lunch with a custom cocktail. Tonight I go to see The Menzingers live in concert across the road from my hotel and tomorrow, with rain forecast, I will rest and watch soccer and do very little. Although, I know I will go out at some point and the place that calls is Milwaukee Brewery where they say they will give everyone drinks on the house when the president dies. 

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