hypocritical

 There is a personality type… it’s a despicable one… that is the embodiment of ‘do as I say and not as I do.’ They will not tolerate other people doing the things that they themselves frequently do. For example, someone who comes and goes freely in and out of their office most days but then gets upset, angry, sarcastic, aggressive when someone else does the same thing. Or someone who always cancels meetings but becomes distrustful of others who cancel meetings. These patterns are interesting when you discover that hypocritical individuals tend to follow very specific patterns in life in terms of banking, shopping, voting, relationships, family values, treatment of animals and people whom they consider to be lesser than themselves, and laws. It’s a consistent and easily readable trend. 

                  Moving on… the apartment building has new ownership, and their first cleaning act was to remove everything, including the cat’s food and water bowls. For now, I bury my rage and wait for the right moment.  Added to this, the heat seems to be rising without pause. All I know is that as sure as hypocrites can be read like a book, even though we have had no rain for four weeks now, there will be a storm the day I am flying to San Diego. There is always a storm or snow when I am flying, often a snowstorm. The number of times I have sat on a plane on the runway, rain lashing against the windows, with the take-off delayed as we wait for the lightning to subside is innumerable. 

                  As I lie on the couch now, and read, I come across a scene in which a young man fails to confidently communicate to a young woman how he feels about her and it transports me back in time. So many times, I did the same. Failing to simply tell someone honestly how I felt. Now that I am older, I am the opposite… so direct to the point that people think I am joking or, perhaps, run in fear. These days it matters not, I have become a hermit, and I desire solitude above most things.